Thursday Born

The everyday life of a psychiatry resident (who was born on a Thursday).

Feeling Left Out

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I did nothing for Halloween this year, and it’s the third year in a row that it’s been just another day. Halloween isn’t a holiday I grew up celebrating, and it’s not my favorite holiday, but I rather wish I’d done something. I think I’m starting to get actively frustrated with my lack of time to participate in, well, life, lately. Normally there isn’t much going on for Halloween that I’m interested in, but there were actually quite a few things I wanted to go to this year and it was really frustrating to have to stay at home and study. I found myself eager for October 31st to come and go and mark the end of all these events that I had no time for.

I’m a bit behind on writing blog posts (obviously), and when I’d originally planned this entry I was a lot more upset about this and had a much longer rant in mind. But I’ve just had a pleasantly social weekend after four weeks of being a recluse, and I’m not feeling quite as disgruntled right now. So I leave you with something that made me smile:

Someone on my floor in my apartment building carved a pumpkin and left it outside his/her door for a few days, and it was a very happy sight to see one random evening. Whoever this person is, they’re also the only other person in my hall who has a doormat.

  (This is my doormat =D )

Written by Aba

November 7, 2011 at 6:10 pm

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  1. I understand completely the feeling of being left out of the rest of the world, and I wish I could tell you that it goes away eventually. (In my experience, it doesn’t.) But I think with time comes some acceptance of the sacrifices, and one also learns how to make time for the things that are really important. I’ve learned to say no to all the things that I don’t want to do (sometimes to the chagrin of my mother) so that I have the time for the things that I really want to do.

    Solitary Diner

    November 7, 2011 at 7:29 pm

    • Thank you for commenting! I’ve definitely had to get a lot better at being choosy about when I see my friends, and also about making myself fight the urge to stay home and hibernate unproductively even when I’m exhausted but it’s been a while since I’ve seen anyone. I think the fact that this isn’t magically going to go away is what bothers me most about it, but I do really hope it gets easier to cope with.

      Aba

      November 8, 2011 at 12:07 pm


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